Tick Tock

I have extreme problems with routines. 3 months later and I’ve finally got a quiet moment to get back on track. Things have not been going well. Nothing has really changed. My weight today was 251.8 lbs. I went up to 258 lbs 3 days ago. Right now I am over 40 hours fasted. My goal is to fast until I get to 227lbs. Or 12 days. Basically I’ll fast this week, one more weekend, then a few more weekdays, then a break before starting another one. Last year I got to 228 lbs before I got too depressed and bored during all the COVID-19 shenanigans.

On a positive note, I have been sober 154 days. It hasn’t been too challenging, but there have been times when I just wanted to have fun, and relax, and not care. Getting drunk seems like those things. But it’s not. I can have fun without it. I’m trying to “grow up” a bit this year. I am very healthy on the inside, but on the outside I don’t look healthy. Once I get to a healthy BMI I can consider drinking again. I’m not sure if I want to.

I’m currently trying to find a registered dietitian to help me. I actually don’t really want to be bothered but my family will feel better about my diet if it’s supervised by a professional. I just don’t know if I can find someone who is pro zero carb and fasting. I have some internet strangers as friends on MyFitnessPal now. I have been plugging in low carb foods into my food diary on there so they don’t know I’m fasting. When they are curious about how I’m losing weight they can look at my food diary and see 1000 calories of steak, eggs, fish, and berries, and butter. It does help having people care and be happy for me when I lose a pound.